I think there's something about in life that only people with specific conditions &/ circumstances can understand in & of itself and just for themselves. Just like how not every U.S. citizen in the continent would wind up as a 'Sotokomori' while having a Korean heritage. Which sounds like a long story already.

..Just because, that has been how life's been on this planet ever since - both (I guess) from better ethical point of view as well as biological.

...Like, if I cause some a fair amount of distress for a length of time but don't get reprimanded for it, that's a fault. No matter who the blame lies to, stuff seems as rigid as a overly bright sunlight during midday; like that one stone in a corner of somewhere that you just cannot get rid of. ..If that's the reason why I had been suffering with not only mental health but also TMJD condition near a decade by now, just to end up being rejected/shushed or even 'kicked out' of the all the local dental offices after moving down to Florida, I have no other say. ..Since it would be years after that I now have some sort of financial income/footing (albeit in a fairly masochistic/brutally infantalising way, one could say) and could at least gain some leverage for myself by being able to reboot online delivery for medical products whatnot, also after having to go through a happening where none of the deliveries would arrive at my door for reasons. Now by that stuff has been nothing but "practical" it seems.

How one would wind up acting like/behaving in society would be a effected a lot by one's own sex/gender it seems to me. Of which topic I've been pondering almost at unconscious level these days. But looking at the fully-armed local policewoman who has the upper muscle mass triple my size, I start to wonder what really went wrong during my childhood. Lindsay Gibson would say I can (finally) admit the wrongs that are on my parents, that is if I'm sensible enough to make up on what's on my part. That's what I imagine most of the medical professional's advice would be like in general, unless I'm wrong and something wackier was going on in their community than what happens here in Brevard County, Florida.

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I do not think Korea is a place where the notion of Restorative Justice is fully welcomed with open arms, nor where women's complaints about their sexual violations alone are heard by the right personnels/assigned/judges and so on (i.e. = people who are playing the role b/c the whole collective "needs" them) I on my part of course do not want to make the mistake of falling into this fairly Americanized as well as prejudiced view/thought pattern where everyone literally is doing everything in front of everybody else with nothing but selfish motivation, while it's also true the story could only differ under the moral grayscale zone - not exactly get better or worse - which is what annoys me the most. It's like Reverend Pomnyun's words on how things are nothing but practically of your own making applies in the worst sense.

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Thank you for reading.